I am traumatized forever?

I am Also 13, and i know to think of your mom like that makes you feel horrible and i know you probably feel like you hate her and cant forgive her and you will never forget that, even if you try Your hardest, but i would tell her how you feel and if she really loves you she will stop and make her feel guilty and tell her if it happens again you will never be able to look at her again and maybe put a reminder in her room that will make her feel bad and remeber and also tell her you have lost respect for her and if she continues doing this to you, you will lose all your respect.